Thursday, October 21, 2010

Life's Little Miracles

     It has taken me quite a while to try and put these feelings into words. Even now, the words I have finally chosen can never quite express the gratitude and happiness I feel about what I want to share today. I feel so truly blessed to say that I am PREGNANT. Renny and I are going to have our second baby! I am 10 weeks and 1 day... due May 18th.
9 weeks: yikes! I don't think I looked like this until 20 weeks with Teagan!
10 weeks, 1 day
     Getting pregnant has been a long and difficult journey. We tried for 13 months, had 1 miscarriage, and infertility treatments in order to conceive Teagan. Just after Teagan turned one, we started talking about trying again since we knew it would probably take a while. In March, I decided to go back to my doctor and have her check me out and I'm so glad I did! The cyst I had on my right ovary had grown larger than the ovary itself, making it even more difficult to conceive. The doctor suggested I have surgery to remove it, so I scheduled the procedure for the beginning of April. The surgery ended up being more complicated than cyst ruptured, I had another cyst on my left side that hadn't shown up on ultrasound, and I was covered with Endometriosis that had closed both of my fallopian tubes. They were 100% blocked. While I was in recovery, the doctor told Renny that because my tubes were both blocked we had a 99% chance of needing in vitro fertilization to have a baby.
     Definitely not the news we wanted to hear. I began praying about the situation and for the first time, I truly gave this burden over to God. I felt so incredibly blessed to have a daughter that I almost felt like I was asking too much to have another baby. Why did I deserve to, when so many other women cannot? I prayed for strength to be prepared for whatever outcome the Lord had planned. I saw my doctor a week later for a post op appointment and she told me that there was one last test she wanted to try before sending me to the IVF specialist. The name of the test is somewhere around 10 syllables, but basically they attempt to force a type of dye thru the fallopian tubes, flushing them out and opening them up. I knew what to expect because I had done this before getting pregnant with Teagan. (My right tube had been closed since trying to get pregnant with Teagan) The test is time sensitive with your cycle, so I knew it would take a bit of time before I could do it. I continued to pray and pray and pray, until I really felt the weight lift off my shoulders. I was ready to be satisfied with having only one child.
     The day came to have the test done, and I prayed the entire way to the hospital. The doctor who did the test was very nice. He talked to me the entire time and wanted to know how I came to need this test. At the end, he showed me the x-ray film and said, "well Amber, I'm not sure what happened in the month since your surgery, but both of your tubes are completely clear."
     "Excuse me? What did you say?" was my reaction and upon hearing him repeat his previous sentence, a tear began to run down my face. (weird, I know, but I am an ugly crier, haha! No one needs to see that) PRAISE GOD! I absolutely hate crying in front of people, so I did my best to thank him and get to my car quickly. Then I preceded to cry tears of happiness and thankfulness the whole drive home. I prayed, praising and thanking God for this miracle the entire way and didn't even stop to call Renny and tell him the news! When I called him, he couldn't believe it either. I called my doctor and let her know and when I went back to see her she reviewed the results and gave us the go ahead to try on our own for 3 months before we looked into any infertility treatments.
     Try we did for a month, a second month, and a third month with no positive pregnancy test. I would like to say that this didn't get me down, but I would be a liar. It was disappointing, but I just kept praying for the Lord to give us a baby or give me the strength to realize it wasn't going to happen. Renny and I talked and decided to just try another month before trying anything else. I still made an appointment with my doctor to explore our options, but she couldn't see me for another month anyway.
     Three days before I was scheduled to see the doctor about infertility treatments, I took a pregnancy test. It came back POSITIVE! Another miracle! More tears, but luckily Renny promised to love me forever, even if I am an ugly crier :) I am now 10 weeks and 1 day pregnant. There hasn't been a day that has past that I haven't thanked God for allowing us to have another child. Sometimes I still want to cry, I am so happy. Miracles do happen and God is always responsible for them.
     Thank you, thank you, thank you Jesus for this opportunity. I can't wait to meet my new son/daughter next year!

Monday, October 11, 2010

Weekend Of Fun!

This weekend we had lots of fun family time! When Renny put Teagan down for bed on Friday night, she asked him if he would take her to the park when he got home from surfing Sat. morning... I think it went something like: "daddy surfin amarrow? A back surfin, go a park with TT??" Needless to say, we rode bikes over to the park the next day. Teagan had a blast, as usual, but it abruptly came to an end when she accidentally got sand in her mouth and wanted to leave to rinse it out. (She hates being messy!)

Then on Sunday, after church, we ate lunch at CPK and headed over to Pa's Pumpkin Patch! Teagan loved it! Such a difference from last year... this time she was able to go on the pony ride, the train, feed & pet the animals, and wanted to pick her own pumpkin. She is so cute!!

Thursday, October 7, 2010

Kauai 2010

Renny and I have been dying to go back to Kauai since our last trip there, when I was pregnant with Teagan. It is sooo beautiful there! We used Renny's 30th birthday as a good excuse for a family vacation and went for a week! We all went, with the exception of my mom (who is in Italy right now!!) and Andi, and Robby & Inessa. (they are saving up all of their vacation time for a honeymoon!!) We missed having them with us, but we all had a great time! Teagan did great on the plane... she only slept for an hour on the way out there, but she was content sitting on daddy's lap watching Little Einsteins :) It was a truly relaxing vacation and Renny got to surf, which made it perfect! We learned that Teagan is definitely an ocean-loving, no-fear kind of kid...perfect combo for a mom who's generally scared of going in the ocean and a daddy who was surfing while we were at the beach! I'm glad Auntie Steph was with me to help keep my little maniac under control :) The first time a wave knocked her over, she got up wide-eyed, and smiling, yelled "AGAIN, AGAIN!"Here are some cute pics from the trip!

                                                                        The hotel!
                                                       Finding Roosters with Daddy
                                                             Fun in the kiddie pool
                                                                        The fam :)
                                                                 Feeding the fishies!
                                                               Petting the fishies...
                                                                    Tuckered out!
                                                         Luau Time!! She LOVED it!
                                                              Swimming with Daddy
                                   Watching the fire dancers at the Luau! She says " FyAaah"
                                                       She said the fishies were thirsty :)
                                                                        Hanalei Bay
                                                            She's such a water baby!
                                                                    Beach at the hotel
                                                                           Wet caves
                                                                          Dry caves

This trip was so much fun! Teagan still asks me if we can go to the beach in Kauai :) Hopefully, we'll make it back again before too long!